Thursday, August 30, 2007

This posting was suppose to be in earlier this morning but i just did not havethe inspiration to do it just now because the thoughts just did not flow just now. The topics i have in mind all flew out of the windows. Well i met a new friend and an old friend yesterday and that proves to be interesting. They were a bunch of cool guys and bitches quite a bit. For the first time meeting him i actually bitch around and laughed out loud for like till eleven thirty. I reached home at 1230.

This few weeks i guess its my on heat days. I have no idea why. :P the libidos are working overtime these days. I not sure what is it that is stimulating it. I not sure whether its the weather or what. But my biological body is at its peak these days and i cant help it. Chuckles.

Work for some weird reason been suprisingly slow and good. there is practically nothing to do and much loafing around was done. Basically i am doing great and well. Attended a company function today hosted by the Public Affairs directorate. Was ok one. Nice watching the younger version of the wicked aura haha the chestnut School kids performing.

Right now i am waiting for my dear friend Graham to make his special appearance in front of me which si going to take a while i guess cause i don know if he knows how to get here. He is late however. DARN! Well i did cancel alot of appointment with him so i guess i do have to wait for him though. No Choice. hahaha.. I guess this is what i call retribution.

Tomorrow would be my directorate retreat. One is a move to sentosa for a lovely meal and what happens after that is as of now no idea. I not sure what is it they have plan for. Its going to be pretty awkward i guess. Thats for sure. Well I just have to turn on my thick skin mode and do what i guess need to be done.

SOmeone confess the liking for me the other day. It kinda of not really a suprise because he wasnt really hiding it in any manner or that i was just too attentive to what he is doing to know that he is interested in me.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

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This is my second achievement that i have accomplished in one of my resolutions to partake in a marathon. Suprisingly from just one marathon to participate this year this is actually my second marathon that i have taken up. Can you imagine. It started off with the JPMorgan Chase in which i felt so good at the finishing line that i signed up almost immediately for the Army Half Marathon. And better yet, i have already signed up for the Standard Chartered Run missing out on Mizuno run thanks to my freaking passing out incident landed me in Hospital. I going to sign up for the New Balance Run. Both the Standard Chartered and the New Balance Run i will be running for 10km. I got to slowly increase the distance of running.

Well back to my run, though sponsored by my company, this time we all did not gather. Basically its the kind everyone goes there yourself drab in your running gear bearing the company name and run youreslf and end it yourself. So i didnt manage to take any pictures and if i were to take pictures looks kinda stupid i take picture of myself. Anyway the marathon was great, an improvement i think from the last time, i manage to run non stop for the 4km and 2km walk abit run and etc i manage to finish by 30 plus minutes i almost certain of that.either i ran same timing as before or i ran faster. Either way i glad i complete it.

The sun was great the crowd was great. Everything was fine. Though my heart and condolences goes out to the Captain who passed away after completion of the run. Its really sadden to see such fine gentlemen go like that. It a waste. *sniff* *sniff*

Well people More from me will come in the posting. I should be going running every weekend i need tomake it a habit to run 8km every weekend :P wish me luck for my 10km.

Monday, August 27, 2007



Yesterday I did my Sheares Bridge Run/Army Half Marathon. Another Great and uplifting achievement that i manage to accomplish this year. But that will be reported in my later entry. This entry came from me watching like 8 episodes of Ghost Whisperer back to back at home and one particularly key part of one of the episode caught me there due to the dialog and i thought i post it cause i guess its a very powerful message on perspective.


The scene was Melinda Gordon(Jennifer) was consoling her husband who was almost ready to throw out the towel because of his job(paramedic) and he lost one of the accident victim under his care. The dialog not verbatim are as follows :

Guy : I worked as a paramedics each time i try my very best to save them so that i can protect you so they will not die and wont come to you to help them finish their unfinished business.

Jennifer : (look adoringly at husband)

Guy : Have you noticed that we both are in the same related business, dealing with death?

Jennifer : Meaning?

Guy : I work as a paramedics attending to patients involve in all sort of accidents and ailments and you speaks with the dead helping them with their unfinish business..

Jennifer : Honey, why do you call it the death business? you work with the paramedics and you yourself is one. You work on the people to bring them life to give them a new breathe of life, another chance another shot at life. I bring them hope and make peace with them so that these earth bound spirits can cross over to the other world, and let the one that still living to have a new fresh start to continue living and doing what they must do in this world.

Guy : sigh

Jennifer : I don see what we do as a job dealing with death. I see what we do as a job dealing with life. Death is just a part of it.

They kissed passionately.

It is such a simple conversation but how the perspective is so different can be seen so strongly in the conversation. Highly recommended to watch. The show keeps your feet grounded and reminds you about many a things we take for granted. Even life itself.

Thursday, August 23, 2007


Thats me. My failed attempt to appear patriotic two days after Singapore's 42nd National Day. Though I work for the Government and was born a Singaporean and well live my whole 24 years of my life here in Singapore, sad to say I am not as patriotic about Singapore as I should be.

No doubt Singapore is a very efficient Government and all but well there just too many things that I have encountered in Singapore that makes me feel very marginalised and discriminated. In many ways Singapore will always be advance and forth coming and yet in every step they take move forward there will always be social step backwards which Singapore will and always take.

There are times where i loathe being here in Singapore. Maybe because of the people sometimes. I don deny it might never be better elsewhere. Like the saying goes, the pasture always looks greener on the other side. Well, to me no harm checking that out for all you know its might not be a greener pasture but a better suited pasture for your taste. the word greener pasture is very subjective. To each his own, so one man's poison maybe another man's honey.

I working here in right now. A very secured job. Very mildly nothing to be proud of pay that i bring home. Decent enough though. However i don know how much more of this i can take. Its been a good ride. I getting pretty apt at what i am doing but its just maybe the other implications of working in here that drives me out of here.The importance of the staff here isnt about the lower division. its the upper division. To make matter worse, some of us are subjected to scrutiny not because of the way we work but because of who we are. Its a shame and insulting but one must bite the bullet and just swallow. I learnt sometimes avoiding battle is better than facing it head on. Such are the lessons in life you will learnt. Almost everythingi is not fair, so just bite the bullet and take your fair share of the work.

I angst now. Well there are so many things to take care now. I don have my other half single, aint getting lucky in the bed, aint enjoying much cause busy with work and school. I need LOVE people LOVE.


Wednesday, August 22, 2007



This morning came with more thoughts than i had expected. These thoughts are not random but are the onsett of a discussion i had my dearest mom in the kitchen today. All relating to some dreams and the repercussions of it that had some linkages with some events that happen in the house recently.

Things were never well when it comes to any matters pertaining to my family and the next door neighbours. The lady of the house or should I say the BIATCH of the house has been more a nuisance, pest, irritatant,virus and imbecile all rolled into one to our family. Her incessant unhapiness with my family had resorted to many a fights that had caused us to install a camera outside the house to authenticates our claims on her incessant banters and actions that had caused irked to us many a times. Some highlights are name calling, slamming the door when u walk past, spitting on the ground and many more inconsiderate acts that so far whenever she brings it up with town council had been unfounded because the arrow in the ends points at her fault which of cause to my delight had caused her more anguish and ill feeling.

She has up till now been trying ways to get even with my family on what grounds is the even thingy i have no idea. My last big feud and showdown with her had sort of made her afraid of me. My last police report on her had one upper hand on me against her. It is of no suprise her family back her. She must have spun a totally different story to her family citing us as the one that bait her to do all these nonsentical actions. At some point i certainly felt she sometimes use black magic. For one, which sane human being would pour water all over her corridor area with mouth mumbling some mumbo jumbo late in the night and i mean LATE in the night and very early in the morning before my sister and me sets off to work. Maybe you may think hei thats maybe common for some people. Well she had never been bothered to do it at some point during the good times withmy family even had said its the cleaners job to do it. So you see the sudden interest in these "cleaning act". She recently yesterday as i was told by my mom unknownst to her had taken a photo of my front door without realising my dad was sitting by the door looking at her. So it is to be expected she is up to some no good again.

I don understand this woman. She seems to seek pleasure in doing all these god knows for what reason. The last arguments with her husband btwn me and her husband. We left it you mind your own business and i mind mine. YET yet this woman is still up her sleeves to do things. She normally washed her plants and watered them and water the small drainage as the key hole is next to mydoor she would purposely washed all the dried up leaves to clog up our area. Then incidentally tried to be a good samaritan and callled the HDB citing these can caused mosquito breeding. Luckily though mom had cleared it and to stop her nonsense had now installed wires right at the end of her plants so the only things that can pass through it is water leaving her rubbish for her to clear. The point is why be nice to people when they don appreciate it. Right? these were my exact sentiments. Let them clean their own sh*t.

It amazes me up till now how come their family is so blind to these woman's action. I mean GOD is fair her own daughter in law had fill my sisters with many accounts of her wrongdoings and whatever she does that if used against her would definitely put not only her but her family to shame. Her ill reputation have spread far and wide with a coincidental a sister friend of mine happens to be the niece of these woman and even her own relatives commentaries about her was " she not a good woman. She abit "short circuit".Yet we didn bother to do so. These woman is the pure epitome of the horrible evil witch in most disney channels movies and cartoons. She embodied the very evil where beneath her scarf and supposedly religious outlook, she totally does not embodied the characteristics of a religious Islamic woman. I cannot say much about her daughter cause i never really interact but from what i see she a much more better example than her own mother whose loose mouth and actions depicts the exact of the how NOT to behave as a tudung woman. She attends some talks in mosque and self proclaim she religious. My mom finishes all the way to very high level Islamic studies, my dad studied advance levels of Islamic studies, my siblings all schooled in proper Islamic schools are i am most definitely sure am better apt at the religion and its rules than her. She claims this and that but you know when one starts saying things but actually meant nothing in her head. Thats my dear woman for you.

Its almost embarrassing to see this woman in her behaviour. Her lack of basic in Islamic studies is starkingly obvious in her action. I almost laugh at one point when she claims we are evil people and as i quote in translation " already never wear tudung so evil". I almost wanted to rebutt by saying and just because you wear tudung you are holy. At least we don spouts vulgarities and screams at top of our voice, we give regards to people when people acknowledge us with "assalammualaikum in translation peace be unto you". These are VERY basic stuff in religion and she don even do it and want to claim HOLY. To her i would say she more HOLEY than she is HOLY.

Personally I do not have any problem with her family members. My rule with them is you stay out of my face, i stay out of yours. Simple as that. I deemed you non existence and vice versa. But her mom and his wife the same woman, seems to keep wanting to throw her face at us and to take attention of her pathetic being. Maybe because she aint working and that she stays home all the time, she relinquish in doing such acts as a kind of a job to occupy what time she have. To her i say, go properly devote yourself to you and leave others out. It is not in my jurisdiction to tell you about religion cause thats between you and god but learnt to live a life without inconveniencing others.

I remember she once said it out loud that my family can hear. " I can go mad if i stay here with these neighbours". My advice then move out lady you do both of us good. My family laugh at the dinner table hearing that and we all proclaimed the only thing that driving her mad is her own jealousy, own anger and own disstisfaction with her own life". May she find some peace in herself one of these days. If any of her family were ever to read this entry of mine, to them i want to let them know i have nothing against your family members just your mom for her action( in which till death i will never forgave her for what she says, thats a burden she carry to her grave) and I have nothing against her son except ( for what you say too and for whatever that has left your mouth, those words will forever be something i will remember and will never forgive you for it, i want you toknow you will carry those wrongdoing you done to me to your grave and remember that something you will always regret that you done and sins you will carry to your grave, and if i am evil enough may what you say about me be reflected and carried into your son) REAP WHAT YEA SOW.

I sound evil i know but in life my principle is REAP what YEA sow and good begets good, evil begets evil, do unto others what you want others to do unto you.

Sunday, August 19, 2007







Well here i am on a sunday in Starbucks in Orchard doing my work and well just surfing around. I guess i just want to stay out of the house for the moment to have a different environment to chill other than home.
School started last thursday and well its been good but hellish so far. Lots of things to do and reading and not to mentioned work in my workplace has been piling up in which soon can equate to mount everest.
This picture here is taken by my dear Indera who is bored to death accompanying me here doing my schoolwork while he fiddle with his camera phone taking my pictures and well doing some other magazine readings but all not lost because she get drinks and tarts courtesy of moi on my new VISA card from Citibank CITI CARD. so Proud i finally got my own credit card.. its no biggie of course but its a milestone step for me in achieving the things in this materialistic world.
Yeah i am a MATerial GIRL. Hahaha whatever that means. Well yesterday i did something different i went to watch the Fireworks and well that was fun.. grin.. Something new watched it with new found friends Wayne and his friend. OF course my dear JAY messaged me from camp asking about what i was doing and demanded to know who i went with. BIGGIE DEAL don tell him.. BLEARH. Chilling out at Macs later with Indera and Diana was fun too and got to know Diana friend BOB haha and watched couple of things on YOUTUBE courtesy of moi baby my compaq presario kekekeke.
Well i going to post now the photos that Indera took of me in Starbucks now. Think i am looking better and better. haha I know many of you are now rolling your eyes.. but ITS TRUE.. haha i been working hard at my bod and doing marathons and etc.. so yeah if i do seen better i should be proud to state it cause i work hard for it.. :P PROUD AND PROUD hehehehe..
so here the galore in my next blog my pic taken by courtesy of Indera Putra.. Thanks dear love ya lots.. hehehe
BRYCE WHEN U COMING BACK!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007



I feeling bad because i been really bad. Think things about me have been going out of hand and in the process i have lost a friend. Well it is my fault to begin with and i don deny that.

I must have been going bonkers lately and i don deny that what i had asked for and my actions for it is nothing short of wrong. Well, i aint perfect and my actions is something in which i will be responsible for. The good and the bad actions. But unlike of those whom do not seek apologies, i made my apologies to this friend 6 messages.

To err is human. It is great for a man to be able to seek forgivesness and greater is the man who can forgive others. That is what i learn and that is a principle i stick to. I don deny i make errors and mistakes in my life. But having since apologising for it a few times, i think i have duly taken responsible of my mistakes and i guess i don enough damage control on my end.

To this friend of mine, I am sorry for what i said or done.I did my piece and did my apologies. If it meant losing u as a friend and all then yeah so be it. I respect that decision. On my end, i did my part so I wishing you all the best and take good care of yourself.

Monday, August 13, 2007



This is how i feel today. I not sure what to make of what i am feeling at the moment. Partly because now that the Long holiday is over, there really isnt much for me to look forward to actually..
Time do pass by fast when you enjoying it and goes painstakingly slow when you are being tortured. Well my school is starting this wednesday. Its a countdown to it not sure whether to look forward to it or to actually fear it. For a good start at least i doing something different. Let see I need to make arrangements to meet so many people. I might even overbooked myself. DARN!
Finances are up to my neck. BLEARGH! Well i living day to day now. Trying to make whatever it is to get through and in the process enjoy it and lament about it. Nothing fantastic has been occurring in my life. Made a couple of white lies hahaha well if the white lies benefits people and myself without hurting any party then good right? Although it is still lies..
Work is work. Nothing much i can say but well i applied to a couple of jobs in hotel line. Maybe i was thinking of going back into Hotel Line and see how it goes and where it takes me. Growing older is no joke man. Hahaha.. Everything also must consider think twice look through it again. Words to be watched, feelings have to be muted, actions have to be routinely reviewed. It is no wonder adults are all tensed bitches and bastards. Everyone whether they like it or not became so conscious that we all behaves like robots.
Well just received news one more of my friends got attached. The lucky bastard. Where does that leaves me still single and totally undesirable though i think i look hot Now.. will post my new and latest pic post national day and see what you think of it *vain* *vain*

Monday, August 06, 2007

I am now in my pissed off mood. Monday brings out the worst in me. Here i was at work knowing full well that this week is a tiring week as my Assistant Director is not in and mostly i have to cover the issues at work as there is only two of us directly dealing with this whole mumbo jumbo stuff at work...

I was doing fine this morning dealing with the many letters and stuff to do. From drafting of letters to sending it for vetting and preparing letters for bigger bosses to sign and etc.

Then came a freaking call from a staff overseas enquiring why there is no covering letter on the letter tat was sent to them to pass over.. SERIOUSLY are they really that pampered.. i mean will it seriously kill them to just prepare a letter covering the letter i sent them to pass over. MOReOVEr they are sending the letter personally shldnt and doesnt it make sense the covering letter should come from them?

I mean HELLO there are over 180 letters to do and if every single one of them i have to do TPN i no need to handle the other issues i have at hand is it.. GOSH... pisses me off sometimes why some of these people can be so spoilt and to think they are above me in ranking and etc.. FOR GOD SAKE PEOPLE COVERING LETTER.. will it serioulsy die... and stop making it sound like its my fault.. I HATE IT.. already not enough staff still dare to blame me... its a two person work here.. dealing with a whole bunch of shit.. so SERIOUSLY a helping hand is MUCH appreciated...

Friday, August 03, 2007

Growing up is one the best and worst things that can happen to one's life. One had to learn to deal with both the unpleasantries and its pleasant suprises that normally jumps at you when you least expects it.

Dissapointment is one far to common to happen to you when you grow up. Life has its way of springing out things which somehow you don have much of a choice but to just face it head on. There will be times u escape unscath and sometimes with minor bruises. Sometimes the casuality can be worst than you expect with huge scars and wounds that doesnt heal as fast as you hope it would.

Yes i know i being very philisophical here but yeah my life has been fairly good to be with some bumps here and there along the way but apart from that its fine. My love life is my major bruise area where the bruise keep getting a bashing that i guess it has remain a dent in it. Its in its repairing state but well we shall see how it goes...

My handphone got stolen partly to my own fault of being too careless. Well aint feeling too lost but am dissapointed with my dad though. He promised to get me a new phone. The procrastination get so long that when i finally ask him if he can get he muttered some same reason he been regurgitating and when i ask maybe i shld just go get my own phone. He just go then you go get yourself without even an apology for breaking his promise. I mean yeah he my dad but shouldnt i at least deserve some form of apology for it. I not asking for alot right? But then he my dad, just as always resign to my fate.

My brother, yet again had succeeded to again do his thing by doing nothing. Segregrating himself from the family is his thing now. I seriously don understand him. To him, i can only say good luck to you and well do whatever u seems to please you. Somehow or rather i really wash my hands off you.

Life sucks sometimes but i guess i just got to bite the bullet and just continue doing what i think is best for me and my family. My irritability nature seems to have seep back into my life. that short fuse has return. i snap easily meaning i not happy with something in my life terribly. DAMN!