Tomorrow is the end of 2006 and thus here comes the last entry of my rambling here on my blog. The frozen Sanctuary has been a place where my thoughts and feelings for the day has been recorded and things that i wish to speak or bring up. Today the day went by pretty uneventful.. The good thing was i finally settled for my bed for my room HURRAH! I went to the gym alone which has become quite a norm nowadays and had a good work out considering i been sick for the longest time.. DARN the weather..
Well after that met Bryce and Adrian.. It was nice spending time with them though they were LATE.. but ok lah.. Indera apparently work nite n didnt inform us until when i ask abt wat time meet in the day then did we know..

I worry about tomorrow... Its the countdown and my gut feeling tomorrow countdown will be a dreadful one for me just like when 2006 began. First and foremost at LAST my countdown is again spend being single alone.. Up till now there isnt any plan yet as to how me indera bryce and adrian going to countdown. Apparently Bryce and adrian has some friends gathering for pre countdown party or something.. Indera is working and well.. i be busy with the hari raya festivities but other than that i am alone.. and since the nite i guess the countdown is going to be another last min plan.. I just don feel good... I might though just skip it all and all at least i won be so miserable...

I guess Just now while out with Bryce and Adrian.. Bryce sense my lost feeling and uneasiness and something wrong with me.. I can see it in his eyes.. I don know i just feel something missing from me.. Some hollow feeling and well somehow going out with them and all amplifies this weird hole in myself... As much as i appreciate their company and welcome their company somehow.. i don know just feel weird abt myself i guess.. Somehow or rather as much as I am comfty arnd them.. i just feel out of place i guess.. maybe cause they are a couple and its feels funny too because Indera not there.. Nowadays Indera always not around.. I kind get use to the fact that Indera not arnd much anymore... and its notnice sometimes i feel when i talk abt the past and Adrian has no clue to it.. Whatever it is its not a good feeling.. i guess.. i just prefer to blend in to the surrounding instead... Somehow being noticed isnt something i prefer nowadays..

Maybe what makes it feel weird is because somehow going out with Bryce and Adrian.. it remind me of wat happen when Bryce was with Kenny... Maybe tats why it brings back kinda not nice memory... the whole feeling of being lampost extra and watsoever nots.. Somehow weird thing is i find solace in my room alone.. 2007 coming and i don know wat in store for me.. The whole day today worries me that tomorrow is going be the same... it seems everything is not plan.. so.. if at the last moment.. everything falls out of place.. then i just not going to countdown anymore.. Ignorance is bliss sometimes..

One thing that i very happy is my best fren finally found someone whom can love him back.. Thats great! the guy great too... very attentive and caring despite his age.. And honey.. don worry about ppl saying abt the luck thing and etc.. Don worry.. ppl are just wanting to be in your shoes.. u know how nasty the green eye monster can get.. Trust me i heard more comments about u being hot then being the lucked out to get someone hot yeah! I think you know this better than i do.. Your partner doesnt seems to care or mind it a bit. and as far as i can see his eyes are set on you.. so basked in it knowing u loves u for who u r my dear..

I guess somehow this year i found out alot abt myself and until now i think no one really knows me anymore.. haha... i been keeping so much now to myself that many a thing even indera and bryce don know and i don intend to tell.. i don know.. I guess at the end of the day they always be there for me.. but well most of the other times i have me myself and I.. I have myself to depend on to whatever obstacles that comes my way.. i don know but let just see wat 2007 brings.. At least let me have the hope that 2007 brings much mirth joy and happiness and stability...

Wish me luck! i need it i sure.. Help me find what this gaping hole is all about wat can i do to satisfy this hole...

Feeling : Lost* which part of me did i lost?

The rambling begins today with a recapped of what happened yesterday. After a hard day at work of doing all those letters.. all 189 letters BLEARGH.. I went for dinner with a couple of my assistant directors for a farewell dinner to one of the officers who leaving Singapore for a posting overseas.. the place was set... HOTEL 1929 at this restaurant called Embers.

http://www.hotel1929.com/dining/ember.htm check this place out!!!!!

All i can say is SUPERB. the price was abit pricy but nonetheless food was GREAT.. Like a pure sua ku i am i ate this Foie Gras, my first and most probably next time i just give it a skip.. Totally not my kind of palate.. the rest was great the salad was fantastic with the dressing and haha i felt like a lamb or sheep eating grass.. AS U ALL know i am a non veggie person only on exceptions if its good and its not cooked do i eat it. yeah yeah weird i know.. Nonetheless.. i recommend this place to anione who wants a good dinner time with friends to talk and such.. of course dining etiquette applies.. we started at 7.30 ended like at 10.30.. Just think about it.. such a long dinner that was only the mini chef special.. not even the full chef special.. A must try if you go there is the pasta and the seabass.. MY GOD those two are FANTASTIC.. DELICIOUS... savouring every bits of it.. the crabmeat was good but wasnt the best unlike the other two i mentioned.

Today i feel more at ease and freeer haha if there is such a word.. hahaha.. because i had a very good talk with the person and cleared the whole air up. So i feel much more at ease and not so troubled anymore.. REJOICE REJOICE.. one lesser thing to handle.. but what comes as a suprise is how direct i am these days.. i say it as it is and ask as it is.. no beat around the bush and such.. ME NO SHAME!!! hahaha...

MOOD : Relax, CALM

I haven got the time to do much postings of my blog. Frankly speaking from the look of my blog, you can tell i am super amateurish at this blogging thing especially the design... I still yet to find a design that suits what the name of my blog is.. ITs just look too amateurish and cutie rather than what i should have been, well for now must satisfy with what i have first.. which is this... robot thingy..

Well if you must know i am now at work and instead of fulfilling my duties to be doing my work here i am snaking away from work and yeah.. well blogging.. My mind not at ease at the moment..sometimes i wonder since when was it ever at ease but that aside.. Well... someone please advise me on this... You met someone.. whom caught u by suprise.. The person isnt exactly THE ONE but knowingly that life you can never find the one. The person almost there.. BUT.. this is where the anti climax part is and the one that causing me headaches.. The person is leaving for another country soon... to further ones career and education and was expressing to me about working there after the graduation. So Tell me Should i just leave it be at friends or just FUCK it(mind my language) enjoy the time now knowing later its ending for sure or... just take it and see how it goes and yet still knowing the person is leaving... One other issue.. the person is XTREMELY busy.. Not meeting everyday or most of the time don bothers me but sometimes makes me wonder then where do i stand in the person organiser?

I been having night meet up with my best fren lately.. we been talking alot of life lately.. and specifically about our screwed up love life. Why is it our love life is so complicated and always starts with turbulence.. what happen to what they called the the honey moon period of the first three month.. it starts with turbulence and before you know it it ended..

2006 proves to be a better year than 2005.. time passes by so fast and before you know it 2006 is behind us and will never come back.. it was only yesterday i remembered praying hard for the new year to come.. and so it came and went... There wasnt much heartaches..lots of time being lonely and naughty at the same time.. but yeah love life wise yeah.. i defintely livng the life of anne Hathaway in Devil wears prada (http://www.devilwearspradamovie.com/) Thats me in the movie the only difference is now the part where my boss turns nice to me.. that the stage i am in now.. however my lovelife isnt as sweet as the ending in the show.. like they say you know your career going somewhere when your life is in turmoil.. The year coming to an end so you be reading alot of the recapped of what happen this year for me now that i am in the corporate world.. the lamentation of how life sucks, the love for the money to spend... the idea that i have grown up, the whole responsibility shit and in general about my life as it is...

This year christmas i be spending 2 floors beneath the ground.. being a good samaritan a consular officer for all those Singaporean outside there who are in distress.. YES u r reading this rite.. i scheduled for DAMN duty on CHRISTMAS day itself YIKES!! I crossing my finger hoping no major bombing or watsoever happening anywhere.. YOU PEOPLE TROUBLEMAKER OUT THERE.. HOLD YOUR PLANS ON CHRISTMAS DAY AND THOSE CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS STAY OUT OF ACCIDENT AND TAKE BLARDY CARE OF YOUR BELONGINGS... and JAsmine honey sorry this year got to skip going to your house for the annual christmas party.. BUT don despair your present is neatly seating in my room back home waiting for you... see i can be nice if i want to or warrants it whenever i want..

To you out there... the MATT guy.. Thank you for finally being able to help me sort out my problem as to why.. why people leave me during dating.. What is so wrong and what happen.. FInally somehow my questions are answered though maybe the wrong answer but at least its an answer that i may well sit and be comfortable with.. ITS amazing how comforting reasonable reasons can be to a human soul.. YOU HAVE NO IDEA what a great favour u done... if you are reading this Thanks alot.. and i still think you are a HUNK not a whatever as you called yourself to be.. BTW its still a 0 score you know. You were suppose to score points.. and you have not yet scored any. ::P better work hard at it boi...

Bryce dearest.. ITS so nice to have you back home here.. feels like old time where those meet up sessions ends with both of us patting our back... I think and foresee we both be doing this alot in many more years to come and hopefully all the way till we wrinkled and pruned up... Indera honey... where r u? you becoming one hell of the devil prada herself eh... being meryl streep rite?

Ok too long a posting... Constantine i know you be reading this..enjoy your holiday and christmas with your family and friends the COWBOY style and i be waiting still for you to bring me go horse riding in the mountains.. :P work hard so u can sponsor me there.. hehehe..

HUGS TO ALL and in case no well wishes was posted for the coming christmas i better wish everyone in advance merry christmas and happy new year.. LOVE YA ALL LOTS....

Now that i have more time at work. I am able to blog today and stop the procrastination of blogging about my Shanghai trip which by now is quite a passe topic already. Nonetheless,I shall still put it in my blog..

The trip for all of you to know is not a holiday as wish it was. It was what i called a trip to study on the work that i do here in Singapore and how its manageed overseas. As you know i work for the Ministry of Foreign Affairs so yeah.. well.. the trip was great, the bunch that went with me were a quirky silly fun bunch that was so easy to warm up to. Apart from the chilling cold weather, everything else went fine.. the jostling and pushing is commoon norm there in China was something one sure would need to get accustommed to. Nonetheless i still had my fair share of fun. Walking around in the sight seeing places are breath taking i know the pics don see it but u got to go there to believe it... :P haha tourism promotion going on here.. Well.. enough words here are the pictures...

TADAAAAHHHHHH!!!

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This entry today is different from the ones that was previously posted. This blogs today comes from me today. I just came back from Shanghai yesterday. Work got me there to see the great wonders China now has become. No wonder China has taken the centre stage for the world in every aspect from politics to business.. Enough about China. My next few postings will bring you the highlights of what i went through in Shanghai the new cosmopolitan city...

Today i spent the whole day at home.. alone... after that short stint alone in Shanghai and away from home and after spending time alone at home.. somehow I sorted certain aspect of my thinking.. Nowadays to sit and have my brain to work its pretty hard.. I learnt a great deal of things these last two weeks.. I spend it with 14 strangers whom work in the same building but never bonded or even talked to.. However being around strangers i was forced to step out of my circle and to step up and learn to manage my new circle of comfort.. its funny how i have to be myself and yet at the same time hide some aspect of my life that has to be kept hidden due to the nature of work iteslf and other personal matters... As much as advance society and world has move some things just will never proceed and move... right in front of my eyes.. i seen it and heard it.. as much as my heart sank.. living the life and being around you learnt to accept swallow and live around it and try not to let it gets you down...

Life itself has its many tribulations.. One has to know when to rise up to challenge it and which to back down and let it pass you by. I learnt a great deal about how to carry oneself in an environment where you be accepted only to a certain extent. The world can be vicious.. each one of us has to learnt to be both the predator and the prey. Studying the surrounding you are in, you learnt to know which boundaries are meant to be kept at an arms length which one are to kept as close as possible. It was clear to me for the past two weeks that many a things are beyond my control and work wise its better to keep things at an arm length.

Its hard to work your way up prove your worthiness yet at the same time not losing yourself. Keeping it up is a great chore and great discomfort. Pleasing others and yet keeping your dignity and rights is a difficult balance. One has to learnt how to adapt to it. strike a balance one may say. However the words itself i feel runs deeper.

Balance is never equal in anyone's eye. What poison to one may be honey to others. Balance isnt about striking the correct measurement however balance is about striking the best that fits and tailor exactly to each other's interest. One thing i learnt is that in life itself you got to learnt to be able to act and at times be relax and just come out of the shell and just be yourself. There is nothing wrong with shirking from being who you are at times if the benefits itsself balance itself out for oneself. Not telling the full truth doesnt makes one less of a person if the weight of truth brings more harm that it does good.

Today staying home watching my Grey's Anatomy, Lord of the rings and i not stupid brings many a perspective to me. How each of these seems to convey its message to me on life itself, the power of hope faith and believe and that how some teachings from past or present doesnt always tailor to getting things right... How words and actions brings benefits far more that what one think and that how with hope and confidence and believe one can reach the peak...

Life is all about striking a balance that best benefit the interest of oneself and its surrounding. I seen someone from my past who walks out on me just like that. I ran after the person wanting to know why that person walks out on a relationship in silence leaving me with all the questions mark.. At a crossroad joins a car came and halt me there... As i stood there watching the person walk on, i realise that its a past that never come back.. I realise in this case i dint turn my back on the person.. The person turns his back on me.. I did my best to make it work and the person chose to gave up.. I gave my all what more could i have done.. if it fails its not me its the person.. i turn and walk back only to realise at the glimpse i saw the person turn back.. Though i went back with many memories and all, i felt refresh because i knew i was able to walk with no regrets.. i don need a reason to know why the person left me because there isnt one i want because i know its the person choice.. and if its anything about me.. thats who i am i gave my best.. NO REGRETS..

One flaw that i have noticed in me is i beginning to be very big on myself.. i need to learnt to lower myself and be more humble.. I will need to work on that.. and REMEMBER i need to be more positive thinking and more positive talking.. always remember " A bad apple isnt a bad apple whole.. if you throw away there is nothing left.. if you cut away the back one the good ones will shine and still has its worth..

Everyone of us has an angel and devil.. Seek the angel out and its strength will shine and flew way high for all to admire...

Here goes the next blog which was slightly getting overdued... As it is.. my birthday just pass like two days ago.. Yeah i turned 24 in dignified and glory.. ( Whines SO OLD!!!) Well, they say maturity comes with age then why do i whine so much haha.. that aside.. See this picture.. taken a few days before my birthday.. Thought i wanna try that hoodies or cap or whatever that thing on my head is and hehe.. think i look pretty cool in it.. added collection to my new look and fashion cupboard... Oh btw it comes with the shawl for my Shanghai trip this coming work.

Before you tell me WAH! holiday, let me stress its for WORK though there are its R&R times.. which not really going look forward to it cause. well.. Shanghai is as expensive as Singapore. Secondly its winter.. why would i wanna wear winterwear in Singapore or even Autumn wear right? hehehe.. fashion has to come with logical common sense..

Well anyway my birthday came and like any other birthday where i don celebrate exception of last year for specific reason i went back home for some religious prayer session for my birthday.. hehe.. i got a few presens namely one from my sis from NUM.. She knows how i adore NUM TEES.. yesh i abit high maintanence watever!! hehee.. My god sisters from work place.. those cuties knows i recently found new adoration for Pull and Bear and they got me something from there.. though the item is something i won buy.. its a Tee by the way but their thought s what concerns me more. It not exactly something which i like actually.. the design but its so sweet of them... Last but not least those few couple of friends u know who u r.. hehee.. bought me a lovely IPOD Nano.. so Sweet! So now i am fully an urban chick with all the latest new gadget.. hehee..SOOO COOOLLLL!!!

BTw did i mentioned i bought myself a K800I for myself.. though i din spent a single cent on it. thanks to the many vouchers.. i got free ice cream from swensen which i have not redeemed.. Got myself a haircut which i regret to this day.. That bitch of a hairstylist.. ARGH!!! Mortifying thought to just relive what she did to my head... HATE IT!!!

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Here i was at home sitting by my computer and well my mind was thinking about alot of things on my way home after meeting a new found friend, Vik. It was a nice pleasant evening with a good dinner and a good chat. Learnt more about new life new strangers and their life story while imparting to them my life story. Every story is different. Every story has its plot lined up and every story has its unique lessons to learnt from...

In my Obsure moments when I was sitting there listening to his stories and all, I felt dumb... I felt stupid... and I felt how shallow i am seeing this guy infront of me so humble knows so much more and here I am... thinking I quite ok but actually no... I have so much more to learnt so much more to see... so what more i need to know... Something about this guy.. his laid back nature, comfortable with himself and just the way he is makes me feel small not offending manner but makes me feel so honoured to be in his presence. He as normal as the next guy i meet for dinner but its just I don Know.. Maybe because today I went through alot and for a moment i felt for one moment today i felt wat is was to be an adult...

There I was rushing through my work at by cubicle and having listen to another colleague.. Super damn nice lady.. but she going away to London on a company posting for 3 yrs.. Going miss her... she talks abt herself her life to another colleague and talk abt marriage... how and what to teach their children about.. language heritage.. and another talking about carving a career for himself... As i went through my work.. I felt so atuned to myself... I was listening to all this in midst of work and thinking about my life.. and thinking about hei these people in their own world is teaching me something about being an adult and well through those hours sitting there.. I went off late from work and walk all the way to town.. Had a good quiet moments with myself.. set myself thinking.. suddenly i felt so humble that there are many things i don know... many people i never met.. Many things i yet to touch see hold and smell... and Vik... thanks for enhancing that thoughts.. giving me a view of your life.. with your dad.. what could and would have been...

well in case you wondering the link above brings u to a list of video to watch.. my personal fav is the one that i pasted and this one...

http://www.hotudon.com/2006/04/18/sad-real-gay-story/

Watch it and tell me what you think...

Its been a hellish time for me since Last monday.. GEEEzzzz... as much as i was looking forward to hari raya.. reasons :

1. Fasting over

2. I lost weight

3. festivity mood

4. LEAVE FROM WORK

Yet with all these moods in full swing during last few days of fasting.. the anticipated leave turn out to be more of a hellish time then i expected. It felt wrong and make the whole anticipation sizzles off faster than you can blink your eyes.. YEAH!!

Well there were some perks at some point of time... Had fun here and there but well.. sad part i had to go back to work on one of my leave day for a while.. My official half day was like a full working day... I don know sometimes work totally sucks.... ARGH!!!

Then there was the occasions meet up with RIDZ.. hehee.. how silly of me.. dint know where boat quay was haha.. yeah.. quite a village sua ku.. hahaa.. was walking with him there.. met SUNSHINE.. hehehe.. waves to her and well oggles at the people all going topubs and such.. in boat quay.. u get the typical ah bengs lians.. the expatriates.. the cutes one.. fashion faux pas... the lorry bang face.. haha.. and the gorgeous.. ones.. u named it the streets are lined with it.. like they say it takes all sorts to make the world.. for all i know i might be in the ugly category or the hot one... haha. i know many of u r rolling ur eyes...

Well... took 147 home.. was abt to fall asleep when this whole big group of the young Malay Mats.. aka malay ah bengs.. sat behind me and making such a din.. even talking abt cocks and well they found one of their mate had gay tendencies.. wat lick precum la.. and wat rubbing cock in btwn someone ass and sort.. god forbid i just switch off and sleep........................ AS IF.. hahaa.. caught u there.. i was listening to the whole conversation and was rather amused by their expression and etc... and well were quite suggestive abt it i quite sure they theyselves somehow secretly wants it themselves.. to be sucked i mean..

Generally speaking to all guys out there str8 or not.. if u can get a mouth willing to stuff their mouth with ur pole and treat it like a candy or lollipop which they can suckles and suck.. who cares.. rite.. as long as pleasure comes ur way.. grin..

Well aniwae went to so many houses for visiting.. i feel so freakingly fat.. YEAH FAT!! ARGh.. I am going to hit the gym to burn off all these excess of fats tat i sure have accumulated in my very tummy.. YUCKs hate my tummy sia looks freaking ugly... damn it.. you guys will sure gawk in disgust if u see it.. damn shit.. hahhaa...

Well hari raya came and gone.. work back in place... DAMN!!! the work is just getting so complicated and dumb.... cant stand it so irritating.. hahaha... work is just work i guess.. sigh.. sometimes they expects so much of me that it becomes frustrating and insulting when i cant remember it.. DAMN!!!

Well.. one other thing i did i went to PEter Party.. gosh... it was overwhelming there.. got to know a few people.. so i guess i slowly trying to get out of my shyness.. hmm.. well at least make an effort. I not good in crowds of strangers.. but i guess i slowly learning..

Went halloween with JAY , his fren jeremy and the other guy, pardon moi cant remember ur name... haha.. had fun chilling out LOVE YA LOTS JAY thanks for ur company.. hehee.. and ppl thought we are a couple.. the place took my pics hope it doesnt appear anywhere... in web.. DIE DIE DIE if it appears ppl think i a club and pub queen.. when i hardly do so.. haha but then again when ur GORGEOUS ppl wants ur photo hahaha.. so thick skin!!!! hehehehe...

But then again.. yeah.. well.. tats for now.. cheerios!!!

Hari Raya is here!!!!!


Hari Raya comes again in two days and well almost all the preparation for the coming raya has been settled. From the house to the marketing and the goodies.. all prepared and done yet still the mood each year seems to diminished more and more... Maybe its due to the fact that i getting older and festivities just doesnt carry the innocence of Joy and happiness...


Well anyway money is prepared for the young ones (pocket burning!!!) but all for a good cause the smiles on these kids face. Feel so OLD!!! OMG!!!! Well... anyway Hari Raya is the time for forgiving, a time to forgive and forget...

Well... To you all who is reading the blog...Hmmm.. My apologies if i ever offend you in any way...If i have hurt your feelings knowingly or unknownlingly i hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me...

Translation ( Di pada bulan lebaran yang penuh hikmah ni... Faz menyusun sepuluh jari meminta maaf di atas kesalahan atau kesilapan Faz yang lalu.. Jika tersinggung perasaan tu harap dapatlah di maafkan and halalkanlah yang termakan terminum.,,) not the exact translation but carry the meaning can lah! hehee..

Well Anyway.. Selamat Menyambut Lebaran InI dengan Penuh berkah dan harap lebaran ni disambut dengan penuh meriah disamping keluarga yang tersayang dan tercinta!!

YOUNG ONES.... TOPIC FOR TODAY!

The topic for today is relatively due to an event yesterday that kept me awake till nearly two am in the morning. The respective party if you are reading this, you know who you are...

I have always mentioned that the picture that comes with each posting has to do with what the topic that comes to my mind today. Now you may be wondering why the picture depicts a baby with a alcoholic bottle. It symbolises the teenagers and the youngs that present today. This pictures nails it.. However need i note that this topic doesnt denotes that i am SUPER OLD or that i super matured beyond years.. Its just an observation that i notice nowadays..

Now a baby depicts the epitome of innocence, young and clear of any stains of what life brings like sex, drugs and etc.. With the passing of time and the advancement in technology, these new age has fast forwarded the era of innoncence to oblivion. The picture shows exactly what i mean. Nowadays youngster divulge in sex, drugs, booze and the what nots. I not saying all is bad there are many who at young tender age is so wise and able to carry such maturity. These are points that youngsters should have and not the negativity that advancement in life brings.

Now bring my attention to you. Always remember that before you jump stop, ponder and think before you jump in. Nothing is good or bad decision its how you perceive it to be. ok? Are you able to live with the consequences and the aftermath of each action.

I don know you.. but i sure somewhere down the road our path will cross or might have already cross.. Don carry with you high expectation cause the higher you go the harder the fall.. However always carry this in your heart that with each fall there is always someone there to cushion part of your fall, that when you call remember pick urself up, you learnt and you grow..

Find yourself.. always be UNIQUE cause there only one and one of you... No one else can be you..

Ok I shall stop here.. the baby topic make me feel really old.. GEEEZ... the old geezer.. talking abt advice to world.. haha i should take a dose of it myself hahhaa.. :P well next posting will be a tribute.. to someone... haven decide who yet.. but yeah.. i decided.. my posting will have a name.. some its ponder ponder blog... some its tribute blog.. some its my life blog.. hehee...

ELVES FASCINATION!

I always have this fascination for elves. There is always something about these elves that makes me so drawn to them. Now i not just talking about the pictures or whoever plays the eleves (though of course it is an added point if the elves is super cute, see this one and i rest my case). The point is its the characteristics of these elves that makes me very facscinated with them. A minus point would be the ears.. hehe but then again some look quite sexy with the ears like Arwen in LOTR.

Let me elaborate why these elves fascinates me. I love playing elves in any games that interest me. Now in my opinion elves is the epitome of what i call "of grace and finesse". They have this gracelike walk and talk that makes you always in awe of them. They carry themselves with such class that in modern times they are what you call the "atas" people. You seen in the countless shows, games and movies, these elves are always in style, commune with the nature surrounding and be it the healer elves, the warrior elves or even the common elves, they always look ever prepared for a runway show...

Elves (if there ever was a real ones) would be so adorned by the supermodel likes of Naomi, Tyra and etc (as you know it). They have this sillouette figures. Slim figures that will ensure those slimming centres can close down for good. They can be warriors and yet have a killer bod. If the enemies were fat and ugly people just barring themselves would have these fat killers commit suicide, knowing that these ppl are nimble fast warriors and most of all slim and URGH! in shape.

Another characteristics of elves. One word *SHARP*. Sharp features. Sharp keen eyesight. Sharp hearing. Sharp everything and with that i rest my case.

Last but not least. two Characteristics that I envy most about these elves are longevity and wisdom. Living long life is one thing but living a long life say.. 500 years old and you look like 25 DAMN! Again I rest my case. Well the wisdom is bonus.. I mean COME ON PPL, you live that long and you are still daft about everything then GOSH! pretty sad. I rest my case again.

Now after that long and ardous lecture on Elves you may wonder why.. this topic on a man made race that doesnt even exist (though i know some people may seems to differ). Simple, elves and whoever created elves is a mirror of the nearest perfect form that we (yes you and me) wants to be. It is a creature that is both perfect and imperfect. It encompasses the wants that we want in life and the one that was bestowed to all of us in life itself.

Sounds Cheem... well let me make it simpler with a series of questions. Don we all want long life? Longevity, we have so heard it one far too many times when well wishes are always sugared with words of longevity in life blah blah blah.. what makes elves our mirror image is that though they live long life yet they are succeptible to illnesses, being murdered and killed which shorten what could have been a long life. Now isnt that something that encompasses the wants that we want and the one that we have which is timely/untimely death?

Physical traits of an elves is something that everyone is achieving name it.. slimming pills, dieting, eye operations for keen sight, hearing aids and etc.. Doesnt the characteristics of elves like being nimble fast, sharp keen senses, slim, skillful and etc embodies all the wants of everyone? Yet at the same time, all these characteristics partly or at least one of them do belong to each and everyone of us. What elves has is a summation of all of us into one.

Wisdom. The word itself explains all that needed to be said.

Now that i have related why my fascination with elves are all about? Will you be fascinated as I would be? Dont you wanna be the nearest perfect human being on earth? Perfect is something one may wish for but being human.. like they say to err is human.. we are bound to make mistakes.. I don wish to be a god or a demi god.. i aim lower close enough to the demi gods... the elves.. If you cant reach the sky then settle for something lower.. I want to be the elves.. the envy to most people not because i perfect but because i a human with the least flaw. The positive points make me envy of others and yet the flaws make me real than fake..

"This insertion of todays posting is one of those days of my rare thoughts flowing through so if its too long winded, Sorry! Today is my ponder ponder postings"

See my Last two blog entry.. hahaa So cute and fun.. taking all sorts of quiz.. must try some other quiz hehee....

Saw it in Ridz blog so hehe decide to just try and paste it here.. don care la who read it haha.. but its a cute cute one... though.. and the picture my GOD... SUPER KINKY haha... Confirm whoever read this blog will sure label me liao.. Well DON CARE la.. what u guys think... if u think i am i AM la if not not La... quizzes are fun i take and POST.. TOO OLD TO BOTHer what Ppl Think LIAoo...

This is my tribute today.. to my SP Colleagues... hehee.. This is my Ernie who is always loyally sits by my computer until one time where my dear desk mate went to crucified him to my panel.. as show here.. AZLIN.. see i so nice showing ppl your cruelty to the world hahhaa.. how sadistic AZLIN AIDAH and CHARLENE is... Not forgetting that CELEST hehe who actually laugh and enjoyed it.. SADISTIC CUTE PRETTY GALS hahaa.. They are my dearest team hehe.. CELEST need to Smile more often hehee... Charlene.. u know wat u need to do .. E*A*T and Azlin.. well hmm.. azlin oh ya need to be on TIME.. hahahaa...

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"FOOD FOR THOUGHTS"

It is time for me to post one food for thoughts that has popped in my mind... I hope you have the answer for me? Here the first food for thoughts for Frozen Sanctuary :

IF YOU KNOW TODAY IS YOUR LAST, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE DONE DIFFERENT? HOW WILL YOU SPENT IT?

HMMMmmmmm....... Ponder Ponder Ponder.......

FRIENDS IN GOOD TIMES

See that picture... Thats me with my group of great Pals cum Sisters Cum Brothers Cum Scandals Cum whatever else that there is to be said....

There are a few missing earthlings!! If you reading this YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!! YOU GUYS OWN ME ONE VISITATION AND WHEN THERE IS A GATHERING BETTER MAKE YOUR APPEARANCE....

Its been a hell of a day today.. At the very last minute, My temper Flare UP beyond flare that it has to be included in the blog.. Seriously if someone has a position and by a mere change of name its just a title which doesnt demean his position or make his position lower... DOES it MATTER??? GOSH... A total waste of time.. Such things we have to do internally just to please one two person.. in which is redundant to the actual work itself... Talk about productivity.. *scoff*

Gym was a solace for me.. Anger and frustration lets off in the dance studio.. gyrating to the HIP HOP music.. moving my ass off.. haha.. if i look comical... i don give a shit.. ITS TIME TO LET MY HAIR DOWN (not Literally though) Haha.. in case any of you wondering.. yes the pic and the topic on hip hop is connected hehehe... the pictures that comes with my posting has its connection somewhere in the uneventful story of my life... my blog is a mess.. so is my life so my story will break from time to time.. following the flow of my thoughts.. Right now my thoughts are erratic.. moving from one to another...

I hate it when irritating moron.. who ask for trading of pics n when u trade they don trade in return.. Talk about honouring your words.. DAMN FREAKING ASSHOLES!!!! YOU GET YOUR JUST DESSERTS!!!

I am in my frustration mode so that explains my curse and swear.. Not going to make any apologies for it.. This is my way of letting my anger go and live in peace with myself in the real world.. Not that its always calm.. TURBULENCE is the word to describe my life... FULL of UPs and MORE OF DOWN... well its late i talking rubbish... Leave it to tomorrow to sound more of me... SO!!! CIAOSSS!!!!

Its time for break now.. here at work.. Let see my inspiration came from an earthling here on earth who ask me to look at his blog to find out more about him.

The blog is beautifully written and so animated that you cannot help but smile to yourself. The conversations and the small anecdote makes it an easy read and easy to relate to. There were many points of love notes send... Felt the love he had for his partner in those adoring sentences... Well here for a start mine..

Its tuesday time is five minutes to one.. where am i at work... cowering between four wall panels in my cubicle. Since its the fasting month, here i am typing away during my break in my blog..
I was talking to Ridzuan... nowadays my msn buddy online..

Faz: How you do your blog so nice ar? got pattern pattern one?

Rid: Go learnt la i give you the website address.. so free go learnt to do HTML lor..

Faz: I such a computer idiot. So stoneage.. haha..

Well so i received the website. Now to get my lazy ass, brain and eyes to actually focus on it will be another thing.(giggles) thanks ridz for the assistance rendered. haha.. I been juggling with my on hand task at work, and replying to the pte message i get from my mailbox online. It amazes me how the words travel so fast round the world. Somewhere on the otherside of the earth someone looking and reading my profile and sending me messages. Though some of the messages does irritates me :

Stranger: Hei!

Me: Hi!

Stranger: Nice profile!

Me: Thanks! Yours looks fine too!

Stranger: Hook Up?

Me: Huh?

Stranger: Hook up???

Me: Sorry not a piece of meat.. :P thanks for the offer anyway.

Though my answers doesnt always have the that (i aint no angel!! stop judging me). I have my own needs at times and of course my own preferences.. So yeah no offence to others!! Well.. in my midst of my blog writing i receive a call from dear Indera!!


As per normal, he get a ticks off from me for not updating me when he coming over to my place to bake.. YEAH u heard it right.. Bake cookies.. I done with my own house.. *ahem* i good at it ok.. hehe i got orders from people.. currently got to make 1000 cookies.. (showing off) *scoff* only manage to make 700 going to make more in the next few days.. lol* i am in training to be a perfect domesticated house partner. Trying to plump up my CV as a domesticated house partner.. do email me for a copy of it and see if you like what you see.. *Laufff**


I miss my best friend.. So far in Aussie.. That BITCH! hahaha.. left me to rot here in Singapore. If not can go high tea.. hehehe... i can just imagine myself a succesful career, certified domesticated partner and out having tea with friends.. SOOOOO WISTERIA LANE! Scones anyone? How about a cup of Darjeeling or earl Grey? *lauf covering mouth with hankie*


Ok i diverting to my sick fantasy world of Desperate Housewife.. See the icon above with the picture of kitty.. i one of it..there hopefully one day there will another I can cuddle up to..

Btw need to tribute this posting to Valentine.. (gee did i get the spelling right) Congratulation on the A for your studies in UNIVERSITY! I know you can do it and there you done it.. I am sure there will be more As to come.. Strive always for the best ya!

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