It been a while since i last posted and yeah i got to admit i been busy working and schooling that i was totally drained both emotionally and physically that i was beginning to drag each day that comes and i got more tired that i was before..

Well, today i am back at work feeling much more refreshed. I went bangkok for 4days3nights. The holiday and short getaway makes gets me revitalised, more energy and felt better i guess.I gained quite a fair bit from the experience. It was my virgin trip to the land of the elephants.

The details of the trip will be conveyed in my next post once my photos come in.. I gained lots more than i thought i get from my experience in bangkok.. It was a trip different from all my trips overseas... This trip was really my trip my move my exprience.. its was my trip..

It been a liberated trip for me. I actually get to be me. Wholy me and totally me. It felt good to be me and for once i felt i was ok being me. There was nothing wrong being me there. For once i felt good about myself, i could tell myself i was alright as me. I was great as a me. I had the confident to walk down the street. I made people look at me again. Head turn and i was good..

You read this and you think gosh this guy is so into himself but sometimes don you want for once to be able to make head turns for the good reasons. To feel that you are good and that you are alright, Judgements about you were positive and its like self medicine for yourself.

For right or wrong, i am me and i was comfortable sitting in my own skin. I met people i see people i mix around with people. People taken to me because i am me. That was nice for a change.

Now i penning this down because it felt dreamlike somehow. It was hard as i was leaving the airport. I saw myself standing behind the glass door as i was leaving for the plane. I could almost see me waving to myself as i left the airport through the glass door. I had to leave me behind in bangkok as i left.I actually turn around and look at myself waving as i left. That was me there.. In returning back to Singapore for my family and friends, i had to leave me there. It was something i had to do. i had to only bring back me that was acceptable here in Singapore.. As i sat on the plane i remembered the video clip by stephanie Sun, Wo De Ai.. that was me leaving me.. temporary love affair with myself.. and i remembered a scene from the Asian Boys Volume 3 the theatre how the macho guy met his former self and the connection and emotions that ran through.. You can call me emotional can call me a wreck but it was a good trip for me. refreshing.. and happy..