Today is what i would consider my personal stress day. Work itself has worked itself so well that i do not have any big major problem at work and infact that there is nothing to do practically everyday. It has been a rather mundane at work day in day out because most of my work are out and that now that the major meeting and assembly in New York are in place there is nothing much to do except to wait for the outcome of it all because everything else has been pre-prepared.

What has been stressing me out these days is home stuff and all that comes with the word home. That has been nothing but stressful. First and foremost its the registration for the home stuff which is of course the payment for the balance of payment. Dad got a bits or two anger from me. I know like what Joo said i shouldnt do that to dad but sometimes i already bogged down with so many things to do. The least he can do for now is to take care of the billing and make sure what paper is there and etc. He will come with stupid papers that is anythingbut the bill paper that is from HDB. He been paying bills for so long he should know what does a HDB bill looks like right?

Then there is a problem with the stupid cctv thingy outside the house and the HDB being all anal about it. Which is of course i will have to do something about it and handle the whole affair. I sometimes cant help it but wonder why is it sometimes i can have the luxury of what the other people my age have. Their concern is of course when and where is the next holiday. what to buy with the latest salary. Going clubbing or not.

My concern at every payday is what to pay what need to get done what need to do what have to be checked howmuch do i have to last till next payday. What the account balance like? I sometimes feel trapped by all these unwanted stuff that i have to get done which can get rather unnerving. I don show it at home to mom and dad of course because i think they have suffered enough since we were all young but sometimes i feel that sometimes certain things my sibling seems abit complacent about it. No one ask me if i am ok handling so many things at one shot. No one ask if i needed help with anything with the arrangements of house or anything. I just tired sometimes really tired... but for my parents sake i just have to buck up and move and move.

My parents are handling the bills and all but sometimes its just the whole ordeal of it that sometimes i cant take it the other nitty gritty details of stuff that comes again and again its just a strain to me. Sometimes i cant help it but hates the growing up part. The best part is i not even married yet and i wonder how if i am married. I never want to get married if life comes with an even worse problems than the one i having now. NO way. Life is just too tough as it is and to be responsible for even more things and people. I'll pass thats for sure.